For the last two years I've watched some of you emerge from the hold the past has had on you, and wondered how you did it, where you found the magic switch to flip. Lifestyle changes, moves, new jobs, new relationships, therapy, God...?
I felt that I was turning in circles, wondering what was wrong with me; convinced that if anyone got close enough they would find it, something deeply flawed and unlovable which would only trigger more of the same.
I know that's crap. Unfortunately "Being aware of your crap, and overcoming your crap, are actually two very different things" Dr. Yang, Grey's Anatomy (I'm on my fourth season in three weeks).
And then I found my magic switch. And it's amazing. And if you're wondering if it gets better, it does.
You'll find your switch.